Wow you don’t even care. I still don’t know why WHY would you keep hurting me. You say you fucking miss me, you say I make you wanna cry but you don’t even answer my texts. Im an idiot.
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I haven’t got my period in like 3 months because I was stressed. Remember how I said I was ok? Well, I am. I got my period today. I am ok.
Friday - August 3rd 2012
I’m doing fine. I actually am. I mean, I’M NOT GREAT but I’m fine. I don’t want a relationship soon. I don’t want him back. I don’t pity myself anymore. So that’s fine. I see couples and I hate them tho. Haahahaha and I do miss him. But I don’t know. I pity him more than anything. He’s 27, he doesn’t believe in relationships, he...
theyrerealandspectacular: Whenever I’m bored, I miss you. Right now I’m bored. I’m really jealous, you got home at 10 am in the morning, and I feel like you don’t care. I know you don’t care. And that kills me. The worst part is, you do care. In your own twisted way. You do miss me. You just don’t want the whole responsability that comes with a relationship. Fuck it. Fuck you too. I’m...
Wednesday - July 20th 2012
Dear diary, Today I’m not completely sad. I am sad, but not entirely. I miss him like hell. We’re still speaking to each other and I still don’t know if that’s ok with me or not. I guess it is. As long as he doesn’t say anything like “I miss you” “I love you” “let’s go out”. He does though. He does that a lot. He believes...
Tuesday - July 17th 2012.
Dear diary, Remember how I told you all that I thought I deserve? Well, my boyfriend dumped me. It feels surreal. It feels like it happened to somebody else and that we’re still together. That I’m going to see him again and everything will be fine. And I will kiss me, and he will kiss me, and we’ll be fine and perhaps watch Doctor who. And I know that won’t happen again....
Yesterday morning we were together, we were happy, he made me launch while i was in bed, he made me breakfast in bed, we had a nap, we went to the movies. Today we’re not together anymore. I can’t handle this.
Saturday, July 15th of 2012
Dear diary: I feel like I deserve a guy who won’t leave me a guy who doesn’t need to look at other girls asses a guy who wants to be with me constantly a guy who would suffer if I leave him a guy who would suffer if I cheated on him a guy who would have sex with me anytime, any day I had that guy, and let him go, he was not the one. Nor the one i’m dating now, and yet I...
Thursday, May 10th of 2012
Dear diary, So much time I haven’t written in here, I feel like I have so much to tell you and I probably will get tired and depressed in the middle. I’ll try not to tho. First of all, I’ve been having a rough time inside my mind. With my insecurities and all, but somehow I passed through that. The other day I was sleeping at my boyfriend’s house and I was not enjoying...
Thursday - April 26th of 2012
I’ve been a little under the weather lately. I told you about my job and German classes. Well, I decided to stop going. At least for this year, too complicated and it’s something less to worry. Well… Anyway. Nothing important happened during this time of absence. I’m super irregular with my month periods. So, pretty much every month I think I’m pregnant. This month...
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Sunday - April 15th of 2012
Dear Diary, Last year, around June I was robbed for the first time in my life. Thieves are pretty violent in my country. It’s always on the news how a kid was murdered and robbed, or old ladies being punched just for 5 bucks. I work all day and leave at 11pm, so I get home around midnight. Before I got robbed, I didn’t mind at all being out so late. I actually enjoyed it because...
Friday - April 13th 2012.
Dear Diary, Im sick. That’s about it. I’m gonna rant about it now. Last night I went to my boyfriend’s friend’s house. We bought ice cream and played Dominion. I felt like crap tho. I have now the flu I should’ve get last week for Foo Fighters’ concert. We played one match, my boyfriend won and then we went back to his place to sleep. Boy I needed to sleep....
Wednesday - April 11th 2012
Dear Diary, I know the day just started, but I felt like writing. Today I had German class, I’m learning to speak German. It’s kinda difficult, but that’s what I like. I like, as you can see, since I’m not writing in my mother tongue, languages. When I say I like, I mean I love. I love other languages, I love learning them, hearing them, everything. The things is that...